i'm going to have to...

take a break from this.
I don't want to.
what I really want to do is crawl under my covers & not come out until wednesday for my doctor's appointment.
I want to know what's going on with my body.
I want to be fixed.
I hate feeling like the living dead.
but in reality...
I'm a mom.
I can't  crawl under the covers never to be seen again.
I have butts to wipe,
mouths to feed.
tons of easter candy given early from grandma that needs to be rationed, maybe just put away.
not to mention the laundry.
dishes.
baths.
Isabella's turning 1 on tuesday so that includes:
baking a cake just for her,
cupcakes for everyone else.
celebrating with Mathew's side, we did that today.
she was lovely, she's beautiful
I can't believe she's 1.
also need to celebrate with my side of the family.
we're doing that tomorrow night.
There are so many other things that I want to do.
need to do.
just can't, not without feeling like I'll pass out & die right where I'm at.
even singing happy birthday with everyone to her today made me feel breathless.
so blogging, etsy, everything is going to be on the back burner at least for the first part of this week.
Isabella comes before all of that & I want to be "present" for her birthday, not just there.
I'll be back to post pictures of the most beautiful birthday girl you've ever seen.
& to tell you what my doc tells me.
that is if it's not too private.
my biggest fear is that he'll tell me that there's nothing wrong with me.
that it's just in my head.
well, that would figure.

mayhem

a few things:

• I did KINDA kicked the flu in the butt. 

i passed it to the kiddos.
and the hubs.
tomorrow it'll be 2 weeks of sick kids..
sicks kids.. no problem
we'll just bum around. take naps. sleep in the same bed.

• this past weekend i had an order for 250 cupcakes.

plus the cake top.
250 cupcakes? no biggie.
just have a plan & execute it cake factory style.

one man cake factory.

• a blizzard.

tons of snow.
snow i can't walk in.
snowed in. hot chocolate. movies. thank God for Hulu
snow that the dog gets lost in.
snow that closes everything down (including the pediatrician's office).

all this at the same time?!
mayhem.

but it got done. thanks for the help of my wonderful hands-on hubby.

the wedding was the cutest thing ever! loved it!
cake turned out great & looked perfect with all the decorations.
here's my week in pics... enjoy the snow! if you're not sick. ;)

oh yeah! My very own pioneer woman moment. someone brought a newborn calf into my basement to "thaw out." saved it's life. almost gave me a heart attack when it mooed and I'd forgotten it was in there.

yum!

this past weekend I made these

smores on a stick

and this

american flag cake

it was my first time making cream cheese icing and it was all wonderful

=)

thanks melanie for the smores on a stick
& to ashley for the flag cake

with Douglas next to me.....

I don't get to do a lot of things by myself. Well, besides dishes, cooking, & cleaning. I always have Douglas next to me, Mathew talking to me (if he's home) & recently added, Isabella on my hip. I go out maybe once a week to grocery shop, then the occasional hair appointment and play date. I do those things with the kids. The few things I do do "on my own" (with Douglas next to me, Mathew talking to me, & Isabella on my hip) include this blog, it is my getaway, I just get to ramble about whatever I feel like. I also LOVE sewing. I'm not patient so when I pick a sewing project it's gotta be a quick one that I can pause in the middle of, you know, in case i have to change a dirty diaper, clean gum out from the carpet, administer first aid, or if, God forbid, someone needs to eat something. I also enjoy crafts, I can spend hours making invitations or decorations for a shower/party, or homemade gifts. Then, reading. I love reading, but it's gotta be a good book. But my all time favorite thing to do is to decorate cakes and cupcakes! I could do it all day long, actually i have before. I haven't decorated a cake in so long. I can't remember how long. I did decorate the cupcakes for Maria's baby shower but they weren't that intricate. I really enjoyed doing it though & wished I had more to do. Tuesday I think it was Nancy called me & asked me to make a cake for her daughter's birthday on Friday!!! I'm so excited! You probably won't hear from me tomorrow because I'll be busy doing that (with Douglas next to me, Mathew talking to me, & Isabella on my hip). On Saturday we have a bbq we're going to & I am taking some chips & queso dip but also some mini cupcakes! I'm not sure what designs and how I'll decorate everything yet exactly but that's part of the fun! If you want to see some of the cakes I've decorated in the past you can click here or on "my cupcake" at the top of the page.

I looked some cakes up online for inspiration and these are some of my favorites! I could never be this good but maybe one day I will get close.

Have a great weekend!!